{"id":16,"date":"2004-04-23T09:43:14","date_gmt":"2004-04-23T14:43:14","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/journal.ragedied.com\/?p=13"},"modified":"2004-04-23T09:43:14","modified_gmt":"2004-04-23T14:43:14","slug":"tired-of-the-push","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/revivalprojects.com\/journal\/2004\/04\/23\/tired-of-the-push\/","title":{"rendered":"tired of the push"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>everyday, in a thousand ways,<br \/>\ni am told how to feel, what to think, what to do<br \/>\ni am the pin ball and there is a sadist at the flippers<br \/>\n<!--more--><br \/>\na dark force hungry and angry<br \/>\nseeking to devour me in more ways then one<br \/>\na constant hum in my ear<\/p>\n<p>why do we need so badly to have everyone agree with us?<br \/>\nwhy is it so important to sway another\u2019s opinion this way and that?<br \/>\ndo we need to convince others to really convince ourselves?<\/p>\n<p>maybe i am a sailboat and my sail just needs to pick a wind to follow<br \/>\nperhaps indecision is my true enemy<br \/>\nperhaps it is my lack of faith<\/p>\n<p>still, the push i feel is an outside thing, an other<br \/>\nconfused sometimes with the inner driver<br \/>\nthe fire given<\/p>\n<p>the static of opinion makes it hard<br \/>\nhard to hear that still small voice<br \/>\nthe voice that I know I can rely<\/p>\n<p>who is this mocker, this mimicker of the shepherd\u2019s voice?<br \/>\nfrom where does this push come;<br \/>\nthe devil, others, myself?<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>everyday, in a thousand ways,<br \/>\ni am told how to feel, what to think, what to do<br \/>\ni am the pin ball and there is a sadist at the flippers<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_exactmetrics_skip_tracking":false,"_exactmetrics_sitenote_active":false,"_exactmetrics_sitenote_note":"","_exactmetrics_sitenote_category":0,"jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":true,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","enabled":false},"version":2}},"categories":[17],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-16","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-poems"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_shortlink":"https:\/\/wp.me\/p4pNDf-g","jetpack_likes_enabled":true,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/revivalprojects.com\/journal\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/16","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/revivalprojects.com\/journal\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/revivalprojects.com\/journal\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/revivalprojects.com\/journal\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/revivalprojects.com\/journal\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=16"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"http:\/\/revivalprojects.com\/journal\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/16\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/revivalprojects.com\/journal\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=16"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/revivalprojects.com\/journal\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=16"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/revivalprojects.com\/journal\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=16"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}